Lovely, take my advice. Don't spend your time trying to find the reality in it. Rather, embrace the fantasy that is there within it, and treat as such: it wasn't meant to be. I don't know you personally, but I'm sure you are a wonderful woman. Whoever he is, he wasn't worth the effort. And it will hurt to think so, but it's the best way to go. Believe me. There will come along someone who appreciates you for you and knows that there isn't a soul better than you to spend time with and to share love with. I hope this helps.